Risk-Averse Writer Fears a "Spectacular" Midlife Crisis

Author Michelle Law says she may die young by accident. She clarifies she is currently healthy. But she senses a coming midlife crisis that could end badly. Law describes herself as extremely risk-averse. She is a "law-abiding scaredy cat" terrified of physical danger. She now feels envy watching people make risky decisions. When this envy appears, she hears her mother's voice. Her mother often repeated a Cantonese saying to her. The idiom is: "you want beauty, you don’t want life." Law imagines her potential demise could be dramatic. She jokes it might involve an overdose, extreme drinking, or a bizarre accident. She believes it would be a failed attempt to compensate for her cautious life.